Gratitude.

For Christmas my mother in law got me a gratitude journal, and by Christmas I mean New Years Eve because that’s when my husband actually got off for the holidays. So, on the first of the year I started writing three things I was grateful for everyday. At first it started off with easy things like family time, finding out I was pregnant or getting the living room picked up, but today was the first day I felt like I really had to dig deep.

My son was sick this morning. Sick as in change my shirt, the bed sheets and clean the blankets out in the living room sick. On top of it all I had a doctor’s appointment to go pee in a cup to confirm I was pregnant because apparently I’m not competent enough to pee on a stick right. Usually, my son would just stay home with my husband and I would run to the doctor’s office for my 3 minute lab appointment, but when he’s sick he’s a level ten clinger. So we loaded everyone up in the car, puke only landing on the front porch and garden and headed to the hospital.

On the way there I was hoping to get in with the pediatrician so we could just make it one whole trip and not worry about having anyone wait in the car, but no appointments until hours later. I peed in my cup, grabbed some food for my husband and I and headed home. Just to pack up and go back to the hospital after my son had magically started feeling better.

We wait in the pediatrician’s office for what feels like forever. My son hating every second he wore a mask, but we made it and turns out it wasn’t anything but a stomach bug.

I didn’t feel like I had much to be grateful for today. I was exhausted from driving to and from the doctor’s office, puked on multiple times and pretty much had to fight with my son the whole time we were at the pediatrician’s. Then I dug deep.

My son has always been a go, go, go kind of kid. He’s never in the same spot for more than five minutes, but today, I got hours, hours, of cuddling and hugs from him today.

There are times when I have to wait three or more days to see my pediatrician. They’re always too busy for same day appointments, but today I got in and have peace of mind going to sleep tonight.

Even though I was exhausted after doing everything today, I still took down Christmas, got a load of laundry (sheets) done and my husband put up my new shelves and family pictures. Today was productive.

All days have something to be grateful for.